I can’t say the first half of 2015 was easy for me in particular. Going through a rough time both emotionally and physically hit me hard, and I really came to appreciate those around me. I firmly believe that if you have a solid support system of family and friends, you can overcome anything.
Things started to pick up in August when I started talking to someone who got the real me instantly, who had the most caring mind on the planet, and who I developed feelings for without even knowing what was happening.
Falling in love is scary, because you’re letting your heart lock onto another’s and it hurts in a good way. You’re trusting them not to break it. Luckily, I found my other half. I truly believe in that.
Once October came round, I was both the happiest I’d ever been, but also the saddest. I got together with my boyfriend, but lost my nan around the same time. How do you deal with those two conflicting emotions? How do you comprehend the love you have found but also cope with the biggest loss of your life so far?
Again, my support system of family, friends, and my amazing boyfriend helped me through it. And even thought I still miss my nan, I know she’s out of pain and she knew we loved her.
Christmas 2015, however, has been the best one I’ve ever had. Here’s me, secure in my job, secure in myself, surrounded by the best family and friends, and getting to spend my first Christmas being able to spoil everyone I love. In turn, I was spoiled, with my most favourable gifts being this laptop I’m now writing on and my beautiful new ghds.
So, for the first time in a very long time, I’m ready to face 2016. Sure, going back to work today was hard. Going from spending every day in the company of loved ones and then abruptly going back to work where it’s not acceptable to do nothing all day is one of the hardest things ever.
Looking into 2016 however, I am excited for what’s to come. I have so much planned, and because I’m so happy right now, I know this could be a really good year.
In summary, I can’t believe how quick this year has gone. Like, the last thing I knew, it was January and I was at the lowest I’ve ever been in my life, and now I am at the absolute highest. Funny how much can change in a year.
This year though, has been one of the most up and down emotionally. I brought 2015 in thinking I was happy, when in fact everything about me was retracting away and the life was being sucked out of me.
I’m ending 2015 having met the love of my life, achieved permanent status in my job, and generally becoming comfortable with who I am.
The biggest lessons of the year, for me, are trust your gut instinct, and trust that things do get better. Because they really do.